She lay restless, dreaming of stretch marks.
Once her God, now a godless sinner,
Once a virgin, now a hopeless dreamer.
Listening to heaven falling on mistakes and wishes
With a Bible list of names lying by her feet.
She thought about cadets as she sat staring at the moon,
And soon,
She wonders how he is each day since they last spoke,
Forgives him every morning but by night
He is her enemy.
Once two kids, playing in darkness.
Sharing dreams of hills,
Of hanging,
Of fish
Of fears.
Tears come and go as though they're not her own,
And so much stronger than you could wish to be.
All her life and she's been asking questions
And hoping he's the answer.
Time's moving faster but her feet take her nowhere