You're no genius, for your sanity's intact.
You're just ones and zeros
time after time,
Mechanical, cold but melting eyes
Make you friendlier.
A magnet draws me nearer
Taken from the stare, a smuggler
And my strength is gone.

Read my letters, I hope you weep for them
Throw your empty eyes on my defence.
Can you hear the whistling sword as it's heading for your neck?

I drew you in my dreams.
You were born a sinner, a quiet
Beast amongst the weak.
Under your cowardice I felt your lion faced heart
Ruining those you love,
Guilty from conception.

Eyes wide shut. The subtle serpant
Twists and shapes your lies to love.
Watching heartbreak through
Transluscent skin stretched
Tight over broken bones.

Your love
Just a confirmation I'm still alive.
Why am I still waiting?
I'll only surrender again.
This time I have a real complaint.
Your lies drop faster than
My tears fall like dominoes

He hates me but he won't escape.
I dreamt I was a dollar bill;
Worthless but he's poor and I'm spent.
The cheap false love he seeks.

Gliding so smooth
Then a hop, a jump.
A tumble. Pull yourself together
Take off; in search of scraps
They scream and shout and run at you
Head for the horizon,
But don't look back, don't come back.
You're unwanted.

It's hard to let go.
Umbilical whiplash. Please
Leave him go
Run to the roses, far from the animals.
Where he is king.

Lost in the sound.
Lost in the words.
We are the food for this mans empty stomach;
When he is done, when he is full,
He'll belch rid of us.
Look through your God
You'll see a clowns head then you'll look no more.

Five this night. Or is it six?
She'll carry on no matter and swallow the release.
No weight will be lifted.
And tomorrow; will start again.

No ache is the cause,
The loss is my relief,
The guilt riddles.

And the guilt will continue.

Little fish haunt;
Spreading lies of lies of life or not.
Uncensored destruction emerge in the wake
Of the misinterpreted tide.
Headed for the murky depths
To join the lost infant.

Word thrown after word,
Losing their meaning before the page even hears.

Omniscient although;
No-one knows, not even me.

Torn opened and exposed.
You wish she was a liar like they all believe
Destroyed and two minutes fly with feel.
'My mind is messy' she agrees like
The deflated balloon resting
In the corner of her haven room.

I love the smell.
So foreign to me but it's every place I go.
This could be home
Only so far. Wineless nights
Are rare but adored; like the
Smoked meat moments underground.

Take my wasted eyes
So you can see as I do and maybe change
Your dead set mind.

Take my wasted heart
And lead me somewhere bright and new
That only you'll find.

Wade the water before you shake your bones dry
And abuse my wasted heart
In a way only you know how.

Writhing. Keep your careless thoughts at distance.
While one by one
I'll drown all of the people I have been.

He was brave
Cliche? but he was meant to save
That broken girl he held so close

The wiseman and she was the star
That guided him into oblivion
Lost their way, a shrinking path fading and fading
Get out while you can.

The road is clear
Her path is chosen
Needs to learn to smile and needs to learn to laugh
If only she could see which one's foolish
And forget his face
But he'll always return.

Futures got her worried
She can't, she won't change
Sinking in acceptance of her fated life
Blind to hope and living in fear
And she won't forget his face
For she still loves.

Look what I've become,
But it's okay with me because it's mine
Harsh winds stung our faces on the walk
The cigarettes, the berries
They kept us warm

You think you're happy yet
Each and every night tears never fail you
Old Harry's watching, waiting
Bated breath
Your day will come, just you stay.

We know just how this'll end
Drink until we're quiet
The same hatred replayed all night.
I'll stick to my frown

I'll show you my dreams,
Too honest
Crying my stomach
The ache you can't control
We'll destory each other.

Congratulations,
Commiserations
Make of it what you might
The irony bleeds
As I pray for the cure

Day of the outsider.
Let me let you let me down
once more.
And how does it feel, when you're keping score.

Wine, whine, wine.
Weep, sleep, weep.
I'll go about my business

Another one for you

One last request comes night after night
Your battle is lost on me,
I've no more fight.
Please stay back but; you rip
You rip, you rip
And I've no choice, no voice
Paint replacing sound,
You need no rhythm on your back.
One last request I can only obey.

Invisible now, no way home
Ever secret told and tear shed.
You can have this heart forever.
Your nerve unshaking, you think you're my friend
You have no faith to lose
Don't take me for a fool.

Black eyes and memories are my only friends.
My secrets betrayed and each thought of you;
My heart beats faster

The soot steered clear of you.
Clean hands and you take all the blame.
No hiding now you're caught.

I never lied;
Continuous blame that cannot stick.
Undeserving of your tax,
Happiness does not suit you, Please
Sit back while I laugh.

My broken legs cannot fix themselves.
Waiting for you to realise the pain you caused.
Sincerity is hard.

My soaking eyes will noy dry themselves
Your wise stare miles from any thought of me.
You're the only one who can ever love you.

Take the blame, and my forgiveness.
Thanks to you a cheap fuck just won't do.
The drink made me love you, each and every time.
The drink taught me to lie.

For now, I'm still exposed to your scrutiny,
I don't mind,
But you're faking
Saying 'cruel to be kind'
I cannot understand you.
I cannot forgive you.

You think I'm not worthy of a man like you,
The dagger's out of my back now
Sorry, I can't care

Like an earthquake
Buried alive, and
Suffocated by thoughts of only him
Let him save me
Only him
Cover me and kill me
If I'm dead, I cannot live

If you can't smile
Don't look back at what is lost
The faintest are real but
Now I feel empty

Look forward only if
You're dreaming for
The future is a dangerous and
Lonely Place
Goodnight Baby.

Twilight kisses have become twilight tears
And twilight fears, my wide eyed stare,
Unnoticed.
When the happy memories stream down my face.

She said 'pain is inevitable,
Don't fight it, embrace it
One day you will love again'
Words of wisdom I cannot understand.
Sand in my ears and
Salt in my eyes.

Another lie that
Speaks the truth.
Private view to me on my knees.
Your seat is always empty:
You will never come

Apple of my eye; you're slowly rotting away.
But the core still tastes as sweet,
New love won't grow here.

Voices of compassion.
I fell for every empty word
I'll fall again, given the chance.

A promise I cannot keep.
Pray, I have tried,
You asked me 'please dont'
Ere, I lied
Against my will,
And it gets deeper, but
Where have you been?
You might have seen, you could have stopped.
Don't blame me.
Ruby tears kept out of sight,
Hidden from view until
I am masked by the night.
Flushed dancers under my skin
Escape, gently steal my pride.
Ashamed and no one can see.
I want to be fine,
I want to be free.

I think I'm asking for your help.
If only I knew how.

Man is not God,
I cannot touch you,
You've gotten colder with each night
I'm slipping back.

Man is so flawed
I jump; you're too far,
Just a button away, oh
Give me strength.

All prayers are answered
The answer is sometimes no,
Why won't I accept?

I'm not like you.
Flawless. Clean
And now I'm losing sleep but
You think I'm joking
I'm not joking.
A hollow smile I keep,
Your drunken words have broken me.
Killed me.

Draped with naiveté
I look the fool, all but me can see it.
Consequently; I don't care.

Retract.
Boy's not so bad,
Take back all I said,
In hope for all I had.

Tyrant.
Boy's got a temper.
Untimely, heaven sent

Dead.
Girl's got a temper.
And sorry I can't but hope you forgive
I long for the bruises;
Any reminder of you.

Curse my blasphemy;
Under my cloak of daggers. I love you, longtime

Blantent plagery
You're a wordsmith but you fail me.
Speak plain tonight,
Don't shield your point, please
Just break my heart.

Lose sight, as we grow apart,
I yearn for your hand.
Though, I don't hope,
For I will lose again.

Living reminder of perfection,
Better off a lie.
Keep your mind open,
Honestly: I miss you

Ultimatum: Girl, grow up or go
Time's not for wasting on those who don't care
No longer the child I was,
So take fucking notice.

White lies painted so clean
On a tarnished canvas.
Does it hurt your eyes?
A minute, hold your breath.
My dead black eyes stare straight; stabbing false hope so far.
I'd rather a broken heart than give up on you.

I simply cannot stop.

If I could show you that I've been thinking
You'll see how I am nervous.
Ignorance in abundance; my head is crowded
Headfucked:Heartfucked
Maybe if I showed you,
Then you'll be sorry

Why don't you pull the trigger now?
This could have lasted longer
If I stopped waiting for the call.

Keep close,
Maybe we can grow.
I've lost, but who's on top?
Lonely mind. And the tears don't stop.

Just think about what you've fucking done.
End.

Lonely breaths keep you counting.
Introvert, unsatisfied.
Kid, where's your hope?

Looking for action,
But you stumble and fall.
Kid, where's your pride?

Turn to danger:
Footsteps numb.
Kid, where's your thought?

Flames that dance
Through a wickersky
Kid, you can't die.

This one means a lot to me

Lost at sea, embracing waves.
Safe and warm, calmy drowning.
Beginning of a fall, illuminating
Too dangerous

Loud noise of air and
The photograph that was.
And in one perfect night,
Fragility overtook

There was a time, nothing unlit
Only the gold in my heart had the time.
I was strong, but I have lost the flower
And the innocence

I will go caress their lips
Every night
But I still have a few dreams
Broken and wasted, from when I was young
Before I lost, now I'm lost

Time is running
Promiscuous? You slut
I am a child, and I refuse time
Forget the time, Stay the child

About the town running too fast
Watch the sky, watch the light
I wander in my dreams

These shallow words of sympathy
The depression makes you love me
Happy's not an option, not here

Can't live drowning,
Can't live smiling
Dry face, dry life
Time for a change

Feel your hand, stranger,I feel your hand, stranger
A curious thing
Eternal secrets taking hold.

I don't miss your hand, stranger
Cursing my name, a lonely vehicle.
False attention wavers

I don't miss your hand, stranger
Tears stream like the blood
Crimson rivers outside my flesh

I feel your hand, stranger
Ripping through my soul
No hope, defer my shadows
See black, let me leave
Can I breathe?

Masochistic, the fear
You grip and I'm bare
Dreams on fire
I don't miss your hand, stranger

Wounds appear from nowhere
A razor on my skin
I became immune to your hand
Your hand will hold me down, stranger
I'm sold and ruined
A moment to think
How cruel you get

Incredible luck, my tainted heart
And you're unwanted
Mangled my flesh
My body is a witch, I burn her

I live under your hand stranger
Soul of unrest
Where did you leave me, stranger?
I will never miss your hand