doing someone a favour, wrote about a picture they drew.

Creeping from the ground
Of my gruesome grave.
Searching for the scent of life to steal
A soul to regain
Feasting on the faces and
Picking at the decaying flesh.
Seize your head and taste your brain.
I'll strip your memories hoping
One day I'll swallow sanity.
Grazing at your insides,
Will your impurities upset me?
My animalistic rage feeds
My craving appetite for substance.

Make believe and you want this night.
Basement sounds flashing in your eyes,
Chemicals burning but we're in a bottle
Safe until the mediterranean knock.
The hello, the shamefaced hello.
Seasonal yearning for a teasing infant.
Sure as my back is turned you picture a babys face,
The burning sun, a cool sea breeze.
I'm a plate you smash now you've come of age.
To prove yourself, you gave me no choice
Pin me down. Ignore my protests.
Never stop, like you always did.

'Look at what you made'
And my subconsciously swollen stomach glows.
'Look now at what you killed'
And my bloated belly ignites.
Who's to blame? Because
Once again I surrendered at the feet of your lies.
Two lives ended by your hand.

You finally lost your smell, unwashed hair
Now I am free from your grip
And I am sorry I did not cry, I will
Cry no more
You are to me what I am to you
My monthly fuck, and I will drink
Until it is right.

I will fall for you lies and fake
That this feeling is any kind of real
We can destroy each other, and
Touch all the right places
You can knot my hair whilst I writhe
In false contentment.

We're thinking the same,
You're raising my hopes and
Breaking me down,
You love this
My train track skin became your guilty pleasure
My spilling eyes wet your dry mouth

Nothing more than a puzzle
I said 'I loved you'. Litotes
You wish you had been smarter, left me alone
Like the others.
My bruises didn't fade.
Stay. Leave
and I'll try to feel alove when you pass,
Everything I do is still for you.

not posted in forever

will update when i have time
Until then, http://absentee.tumblr.com/

Read my scars like braille while I sleep.
A million secrets you promised to share.
Pretend to wallow in the
Wake of my death
Another empty place to lay your blame.

The face of regret scarring the horizon,
As I sail faster and faster
Never getting nearer.
I cannot reach it
I cannot grasp it.
All the while your dirty smirk
Widens into the setting sun.

Breathing head,
Slowly in, slowly out
Swollen temples scream 'darker'.
Heavy lids fight lickering bulbs,
Thoughts pushing hard against ivory walls
Released in each exhale.
To be forgotten before they're heard
To be forgotten before they're seen.
Unnoticed.
Throbbing darkness.
Then the comforting hand of a stranger,
On my shoulder lands.

For you are only words,
You wear your innocence like a warm winters coat,
Trying to melt your icy blood.
Bottomless karosine eyes like wells;
Drown me.
The number calms me,
Frightens me.
A immortal line, each murder a
Long awaited suspense.
You hunt and so did I.
My stony lungs like your heart.
For you are only words;
Hard to erase,
but slowly fading.

Good genes,
But you never clean your teeth but with wine and blood
Suffocate and choke her,
Leave her crying in her dreams
With your wine and blood.
Back turned when she's breathing
When she's moving.
Frontside down and break her back.
Smother her until she's still.
Turn back to your wine and blood

Heed my call.
Telephone tears
Like crocodiles bite me.
Short back and sides,
Give me greens to grow.

How alike we are.
Devil dancing at our feet,
I can hear your cries through paper thin walls,
You cannot see.
You wish to drown in your own saliva,
Blow me away with your harsh winds.
Dislike me to your content
Until I can learn to like myself.

She lay restless, dreaming of stretch marks.
Once her God, now a godless sinner,
Once a virgin, now a hopeless dreamer.
Listening to heaven falling on mistakes and wishes
With a Bible list of names lying by her feet.
She thought about cadets as she sat staring at the moon,
And soon,
She wonders how he is each day since they last spoke,
Forgives him every morning but by night
He is her enemy.
Once two kids, playing in darkness.
Sharing dreams of hills,
Of hanging,
Of fish
Of fears.
Tears come and go as though they're not her own,
And so much stronger than you could wish to be.
All her life and she's been asking questions
And hoping he's the answer.
Time's moving faster but her feet take her nowhere